I have something I’d like to tell you all (Patreon)

Lately, I’m really sorry for not showing the kind of presence I promised. I haven’t been active on Twitter much either… I just couldn’t find the motivation.

The second siwoo video I made before was something I created out of my own personal desire, and the fact that many of you didn’t like it came as a huge shock to me. Even now, I see it as my mistake. A video where I don’t even appear… it really didn’t make sense. I do like cute guys, but I think I took it too far that time. On top of that, I also failed to keep my promise of uploading a video every month…

I want to understand what you all want, try new things, and show you more polished work with new techniques. I like being ambitious with my creations, but honestly… creative work is really difficult. I know it sounds like I’m making excuses, and that itself stresses me out. Some days I feel okay, then after a few days I feel down again… I’ve always tried to push through it while thinking of you all and keep creating, but recently even that has been hard…

I’m truly sorry for disappointing you… I’ve been reflecting a lot. I really hate myself for showing this side of me.

And the thing I’ve been lacking the most is communication. I wanted to interact more through Twitter posts, but I was so shocked by my mistake that I felt like I needed a break, and it also started to feel like it wasn’t the right place for me anymore. I was also very scared of the possibility of someone maliciously reporting me. There have been a lot of bad things that happened to me that I couldn’t tell you about. I didn’t want to worry you, and I always wanted to show you a bright side of me.

So, the platform I found is Fansly. Since it allows more freedom in what I can show, I think I’ll be able to create videos with more ideas. I’m currently preparing it as a place where I can communicate with you and share more privately. I’ll still upload videos with appropriate content on Twitter.

Thank you so much for reading this long message. Once my heart heals a bit more, I’ll bring you better news. I’ll keep making my work, so please don’t worry!